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[04 Feb 2008|02:50pm] |
gahhhh.
I seriously cannot focus on anything right now./
I have no motivation to type this paper at all. and it's due tomorrow.
i iwsh i had adderall. =[
mmm whatever. at least the drama has sub sided.. i probably just jinxed myself though.
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[17 Mar 2007|11:38am] |
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I miss the friends I had in 8th and 9th grade.
I miss knowing that they actually cared, that we could talk, hang out almost everyday. Sober.
why is it so hard for everyone to have fun sober anymore?
on a lighter note, I am spending st. patty's day with Andrew.
weren't we adorable? =]
but I'm really glad that me and andrew have been hanging out more lately.
hopefully he doesn't get sick of me soon!
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[13 Mar 2007|09:43pm] |
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I can't believe this.
I seriously just can't.
This is like a never ending nightmare.
and I did it to myself.
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[11 Mar 2007|04:26pm] |
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Underoath- When the sun sleeps. |
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Things are oddly going okay.
Maybe it's the prozac increase?
eh well whatever it is I'm not complianing.
The new t.v. is getting put in the spot it should have been in the first place. (family room.)
Which means next weekend is girls weekend, playing mario kart on a lovely huge screen and eating chinese food till we puke.
Jackie's birthday is this week also, so I need to make her cupcakes. It should be fab though.
Marborol (yes i know i can't spell) Smooths are 2 for 7.41 at the 7-11 by my house. HOORAH.
I have blue/green hair. (not all of it is though.) =[
The weather is fabulous.
Underoath is pretty sweet.
And I have one full day of school next week. (double hoorah)
I ate mexican last night. (thanks to Jarek.)
I went bowling today to support andrew and east side fury. I had alooot of fun.
Andrew will be in Flordia when I will. What does this mean? I HAVE SOMEONE TO RIDE ROLLERCOASTERS WITH.
Even though I will force Zell on at least a baby one.
and yeahh.
(hopefully another fantastic week?)
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[07 Mar 2007|05:22pm] |
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Lady Sov. |
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I am beyong annoyed.
I am so over highschool rumors.
so today I find out that the whole time I was dating jay I was supposedly with Matt and we were shooting up together.
Funny, but I don't remember any of that.
gee. guess I'm just a big forgetfull idiot. huh?? =]
so that was lovely.
but i don't really feel like calling people out about it becuase I'm over spreading dumb rumors. Especially false ones.
whateverrr only a few more months and I don't have to see these people again.
other than that. I tried to give blood today, but my iron was too low. So I have a list of foods to stock up on until may when the next blood drive is. I really hope I can donate by then, this is the second time I've tried.
so other than those two things today was an excellent day.
I have a good feeling about this week. <333
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[12 Feb 2007|07:56pm] |
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Blank Page- Smashing Pumpkins. |
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So I didn't have something to do today in second hour.
I let my mind wander, and this is what it had to say.
I can't decide what to do next.
Where do I want to go?
What do I want to evolve into?
There are so many choices
Too many things that I want to be done.
How will I accomplish any?
I have the drive to do all these things,
but when I think of all the things I actually want to do,
I completely shut down and my mind goes blank.
I don't want to throw my life away. I want to be
active,
outgoing.
Involved.
Living to my fullest.
Expanding my mind.
Taking care of my body.
I want to work out.
Be in shape.
Show that I am strong and I can survive life.
I have survived so much so far.
I can fight my battles. I may not always win. But I fight.
My mind may not be average.
But I kind of like it that way.
becuase I am not average.
I am not a drone that goes through
"the motions" day by day.
Unexpected things will always come
my way.
But it keeps me on my toes.
and it keeps me strong.
Making me strong with each day I survive.
I may not have life mastered,
and I may never master it.
but this life is mine.
and I intend to keep it that way.
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| Long time no update? |
[23 Dec 2006|06:47am] |
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Danity Cane "Oh thoseeee show stoppperssss." |
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Alyse and Andrew and the old neighborhood came ovver tonight.
I pretty much loved it.
We have plans to go bowling, I hope it actually happens, I think it would be great, just us 3 [or 5 if we count siblings, which I wouldn't mind.]
Otherwise just boyfriend drama, and for once, I feel like I am okay, my newest theroy is "If they don't feel the same way back, why waste your time on something that won't happen?" Hopefully I stick to my word. Honestly though, as long as you have family and friends, you don't need a "significant other" for you right? As long as you are happy, that's all that matters. I'm hoping, We'll see when New Years Eve comes....
So I think I am pleasant all around for once.
P.S. I haven't taken my meds in at least 2 weeks.
maybe I should start that back up again, I've been kinda crazy lately....?
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| Recap from 8/4. |
[12 Aug 2006|11:15pm] |
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So last Friday [the 4th] was Chad's houuuse.
Sorry it took so long to update, but I'm lazy.
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[02 Aug 2006|02:43pm] |
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIN!
I LOVE YOU
&& THIS LINK IS FOR YOUUU!
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[17 Jul 2006|09:01pm] |
Mk.
So I'm like super upset right now.
and I want to vomit.
Some people are just so disgusting. I don't get it. at all.
I'm not even going to get in-depth about why I am so utterly disgusted because I don't feel like getting into this. Becuase then I will just get more upset and flip out on everyone.
But basically kdfgjdfghgjksjk
I wish I could say what I want.
some people make mistakes,
others ARE mistakes.
and a precious waste of MY life.
I cannot believe I wasted that much of MY time on that.
excuse me while I go puke.
whatever.
I'm over this livejournal shit for now.
kbye.
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